Why is it so difficult to live? Why does life seem so complicated? Why are order and consistency out of reach?
Why is there this constant feeling of heaviness, pain, pressure, despondence, emptiness, exhaustion and burnout?
Why is it so difficult to achieve your goals, big or small? Even the basic daily tasks seem impossibly tough to do because of the anxiety, mental fog, tiredness and confusion.
These whys become even sharper and more poignant when noone and nothing seems to be in the way of you doing what you want and need. If nobody prevents me from doing my tasks, why do I still struggle so much?
The answer is inside. This tormented and exhausted way of living could be a result of a mark left by the trauma from being raised by mentally sick people who tightly control their child’s life.
Because of their mental illness they disrupt the formation of the healthy, free and safe interaction of the child with herself, her environment and others. They constantly interfere in these processes, tamper with them, and stand in the child’s way. They force their rules and ways of doing things. They are convinced they know better. They coerce, they manipulate. They oppress, they punish.
This causes the child to be conflicted, confused, puzzled, unclear and uncertain. This prevents the child from developing into a strong human being capable of looking after herself, being independent and self-sufficient, to live freely, peacefully and with confidence and dignity.
If you are experiencing such difficulties, please know it’s not you, it may be symptoms of trauma from the systematic and chronic abuse you may have experienced in childhood.